LITTLE ME

Hello my beauties,

Over the last couple of days I have been overwhelmed by the lyrics of the song called Reckless Love by Corey Asbury. The message in this song has captivated me. The revelation of the love of Christ is what saved me from my sins. It is what healed my wounded heart and changed my life forever.  And if He did this for me, He can do it for you too. The songs bridge says:

“There’s no shadow You wont light up.

Mountain You wont climb up.

Coming after me.

There’s no wall You wont kick down.

Lie You wont tear down.

Coming after me.”

There is something about truly believing beyond a shadow of a doubt, that Jesus loves me. I always say, it is one thing to know about the love of Christ and it is another thing to truly believe it AND feel it! 

The front cover of Cory Asbury’s album literally shook me. Here is a picture of it:

What I see is a father protectively hugging his 5 year old son. Not his teenage son or his adult son.  But his 5 year old son. I also find it interesting that we don’t see a depiction of Jesus protectively hugging a fully grown adult. Let me share why this picture shook me.

Last year just prior to ministering at women’s conference, the Holy Spirit ministered to me in a profound way. I stumbled across a picture of myself at the age of 5 while scrolling though Facebook. In the picture I am wearing a girl’s ministry uniform. In those days the uniforms had a sash where girls could display the badges they had earned after completing different course. My sash usually had the least amount of badges. I remember always feeling embarrassed to wear my uniform and especially the empty sash. A public display of my failure to achieve the requirements, or so it felt. 

I remember the day the picture was taken. Specifically how I was feeling. I was in a room filled with lots of children my age, yet I felt alone and out of place.  I remember thinking at that age “I am weird”. And I remember thinking that my hair was too big and I didn’t like it because I didn’t think it made me beautiful. Guys,  I was ONLY 5 years old!! Same age as the child on Corey Asbury’s album cover. As I stared at the picture of Little ME, Holy Spirit began to show me that the devil makes no discrimination between people and he certainly doesn’t care about age. I suddenly realized that even before the young age of 5 the devil had already waged war against my young heart. His plan to destroy us begins the day we are born. But praise God, that we have a Heavenly Father who protects us. Who guards us with His fierce unrelenting love. The devil has a plan in motion to destroy us. But guess what? So does God!  and "we can be certain that God who began a good work within you will continue his work until it is finally finished." (Philippians 1:6a). God's plan is perfect and on time. It is a plan of redemption and salvation. A plan of freedom and restoration. The enemy thought he had the upper hand. But God always knew that a day would come where is relentless reckless love would break through the barriers of my heart and fully captivate me. 

I heard the Holy Spirit ask me, “if you could speak to that little girl in the picture right now, what would you say to her?” Immediately my heart ached and tears began stream down my face. I was sobbing as I stared at that photo of Little Me. But I knew for certain, that if given the opportunity to meet her face to face, I would hold her tightly in my arms and hug her as hard as I can. I would cover her in kisses, lots of them until she squeal’s with joy and laughter. Then I would sit her on my lap and look deeply into her large brown eyes with incredibly long lashes and here is what I would tell her:

“You are so very beautiful to me and I love you…. 

I really, really love you. 

I am sorry Little Me that for a long time I didn’t love you 

the way you deserved to be loved. 

I regret that I didn’t take care of you. 

But I am here now. My heart is no longer poisoned by the lies the devil fed me. 

Jesus came for me and He healed me!

 He set me free! 

I am finally free to love you they way you deserve to be loved. Please forgive.” 

It took Jesus having to shine His light into the shadows and dark recesses of my heart. It took Him having to climb the mountains of self doubt, anxiety, and depression. It took Him having to kick down the walls of self protection that I had unknowingly erected keeping Him and everyone who loves me out. It took Him having to tear down the lies the enemy plastered all over the walls that I erected…  Can you envision that for just one second? Huge stone walls surrounding you, and plastered all over those walls are posters that advertise every lie the enemy has fed you about you. Jesus kicked down those walls and He tore down the lies. Jesus came for me!  He pulled me out of my pit of despair and He is coming after you too! He longs to captivate you with His everlasting beauty and endless love. 

Today Holy Spirit asks, will you allow yourself to be found by the reckless love of Jesus? Will you allow Christ to shine His glorious light into the dark areas of your heart? Will you allow Him to heal your wounded heart? Will  you allow Jesus to restore to you all that the enemy stole from your when you were Little Me? Cause your Little Me is waiting to hear from you. 

Love you guys,

Naida